This week I have not been as devoted to my studies as I needed to be...nothing to blame it on, just doing other things. We've had a lot of tragedy in our area this past week or so and it got me thinking about loss though. Between the tornadoes and some deaths that have occurred I've had a lot on my mind how our possessions and time here on earth is just temporary. I'm not scared of the loss of my own life but I am petrified of the loss of life of any of my friends or family. I just don't want to experience the pain. I can't imagine it. We've had two car accidents this week (one teenager, and one adult) who both lost their lives and left families behind. We know their families through friends and I can't imagine what they are going through. The wife of the man even brought the casket home and put it in her room until the funeral....The teenager was supposed to graduate this year and had his whole life ahead of him. And as far as possessions go...I know we look at our houses and cars as if they define who we are...but when things like tornadoes, hurricanes, floods destroy them....you realize how superficial they are! We can't take stuff with us and there is a reason for that. We would be killing each other over crap if life was all about what kind of stuff we had.
I don't really think I have too much of a problem with material items but I do find myself always wanting to "fix up" my house :-) But what I do need to work on is my fear of loss. I sometimes get carried away thinking of lots of ways things can go wrong and what bad stuff can happen instead of just having faith that He will take care of those that I love and that if it is our time then so be it. I know this is kind of morbid but it is what's on my mind today :-)