June 14, 2008

Check out this Dad's Story...

I took this excerpt from the blog that you must go visit! It's called Matt, Liz and Madeline. The blog is written by a dad of a barely 3 month old little girl who lost his wife just one day after the baby was born. He is now learning more about fatherhood than most dad's probably want to learn! The story is truly a lesson in taking each day and living life to the fullest. This post is where he explains what happened in those short, yet long hours after the birth. (he does use a little foul language on his site, but it is still a great read) I thought it was fitting seeing how Father's Day is tomorrow....I hope he has a good one...He really deserves it!

what happened?

i’ve been hearing
that question
a lot.
so…
for those of you
who don’t know
here goes…
5 weeks of bedrest.
(2 at home, 3 in the hospital).
liz had low amniotic fluid.
baby had her cord around her neck.
baby’s heart rate dropped
(multiple times).
liz almost delivered
(multiple times).
the day finally came
(3/24).
madeline was born via c-section.
everyone was happy
and healthy.
liz was told
to hang out in bed
for another 24 hours
and then she was going to
see madeline.
she waited patiently
hearing stories
and seeing photos
of me
feeding and changing
madeline’s diapers.
(she was soooo jealous and i teased her mercilessly that i was 1, 2, 3 diapers ahead of her and that she had to catch up).
24 hours came
and she got ready
to lay her hands
on madeline
for the very
first
time.
she got up from bed
(with the help of some nurses and me).
we joked about her new-found independence.
i told her that she
had to start waiting on me
because i’d been waiting on her
for 5 weeks.
she laughed,
and said,
“of course.”
she walked to the mirror
and said,
“my hair looks like shit.”
we all laughed
(because her hair looked great, especially for someone who’d been on bed rest for 5 weeks).
the nurse said,
“are you ready to go?”
she said,
“yes.”
her excitement
was overflowing.
she turned around
to sit in her wheelchair
for her ride to see
madeline.
she said,
“i feel lightheaded”
and then she passed out.
we got her in to
her hospital bed.
doctors and nurses
rushed to help her.
but nothing could be done
to bring her
back.
no one to blame.
shitty luck
and
a pulmonary embolism
are what led us to
the saddest,
most horrific moment
of my life.
(and many other people’s lives).


www.mattlogelin.com


3 comments:

Dawn said...

That is so sad. Death is kinda scary. You can just be talking to your loved one and the next moment, they're gone.

Live each moment like it's your last.

Love ya.

Sarah said...

That is just heartbreaking. It really makes me appreciate what I have.

Aric and Amber said...

That is very sad, but now after reading that I'm paranoid that I'm going to have a pulmanary embolism while giving birth. You can ask Aric about the blood clots in my legs. Poor guy.